Water Fasting blog and videos

Some of you know, most of you don't, but we (Amoda and myself) are going for a 21 day water fast in Costa Rica starting January 10th 2015.
It stands to be quite an experience and we are both building up to it.

It is now Dec 17th. We are in California and have both had some issues to deal with while being here, and the stress from moving all the time, money concerns (its VERY EXPENSIVE HERE) and the ups and downs of life on the road take their toll on energy resources, kidney and adrenals.
I have been working with an acupuncturist on my Kidney Yin, and Amoda has been working on balancing her Yang every which is depleted.
The reason Im saying this is because taking issues of imbalance and weakness into water fasting, although its considered a healing modality, can be contra indicated. The body needs its power, its immune strength, to deal with the change of fuelling, and depleted resources can cause more depletion. So we are building up reserves while we are here so we can make the best of things.
Of course this is only my personal intuitive opinion.
But our acupuncturist also feels this way.
So it's good to enter the water fast from as strong a place as possible. This is not always possible, as most people water fast to heal chronic issues. So many of these issues are going to relate to the immune system and imbalance of organ function, hormone dysfunction and major toxicity that just facing it all is the only way.

I will be very keen to find out how other people get on and what challenges they face. Amoda and I have done many very deep detoxification processes in the past and feel we know the terrain. It can be arduous. Emotions come up for healing. Our beliefs are challenged. Fear rises, anger rises. All these things have to be met consciously and let go of for healing to happen. But many people want it simply to be a mechanical physical experience and get frightened and angry when their stuff comes up.

We do 21 days with no food. It sounds like a lot, but many people do longer, sometimes even 40 days. It's sure going to be a ride.

And I want to take you along with me. So I'm going to blog and make some videos on the way.
Stay tuned and I will share with you some intimate moments and reflections on the process. I am particularly interested in the spiritual dimension. When you take away the means of survival and one of the ultimate distractions and emotional addictions, there is a lot of emptiness and a great opportunity to stare into the abyss of nothingness. I believe you can get closer to God through water fasting. I will let you know!!

Meanwhile if you are interested this book is an excellent read about all aspects of water fasting.

Dealing with the subconscious agenda.

Today was a profound day for me. I learned something very valuable about myself.

I was doing a podcast with the wonderful Julia Chi Taylor for her Running Conscious website.We had tried this interview once before but I had experienced some kind of blockage of breathing in my throat that made me very uncomfortable and I had to stop.
I was wondering whether I would experience this sensation again as it seemed linked to a emotional/mental issue. It was so physical, and it caused such a profound anxiety and self consciousness that it demanded attention. I have had this experience before but only around music performance, never around speaking, and I have done many interviews and public talks.

So  today was going to be interesting. Well it started well and the subject opened up.
But then it started again! I found it hard to swallow and got hot under the collar, Julia sensed my difficulty and kindly kept talking, and we both thought (we discussed afterwards) that I was going to have to stop. Very odd. Anyway I didn't stop, I stayed with it and persisted. I was damned if I was going to be beaten by some neurotic insecurity.
And the podcast was pretty good, we achieved what we wanted and I communicated the information and inspiration I wanted.

But I looked into it afterwards and really got deeper into what on earth was happening here, and this is what I came to.
The 'throttling' sensation I felt was not bad, but good. I have such information and depth of experience to share with people that when the opportunity presents itself to me, as it has with Julia's Running Conscious project, The energy all wants to release at once. It revealed to me that I have a burning desire to be heard and to be seen, and that even though it may hurt a little, I HAVE TO PERSIST.

I am an expressive, and I am a sensitive. And I am very creative. I carry wounds, although many people might not see them. As a singer and guitar player, I have been on stage many times, and have done loads of public talks about health and well being, so I'm used to it all on some level.
But the subject I am talking about now matters to me SO MUCH that I am passionate and sensitive about it. It really means something to me.And it is important to me to be real.

The reason I'm sharing this is to show that our subconscious is always alert and always up to something, and the deeper and more authentic we become the more we have to clear whatever stands in the way of our expression.
Expressing ourselves matters deeply.
Failure to express ourselves or suppression of this most basic of functions, can result in all manner of issues, both emotional and physical, so it is up to us to dig into the buried 'stuff', heal it and keep growing.
My understanding is that, far from being obstructions and problems, these things are our guides and helpers, showing us where we need to grow and evolve.
So I am grateful to this experience. Will it happen again? It may well do, but fearing it only creates it, so not fearing it leaves it alone to return or not, these things are so deep and subtle they cannot be forced.
Amazing soul intelligence.

Thanks for reading!

http://www.runningconscious.com/ 

What is the body and why care?

Recently I did the second podcast interview with Julia Chi Taylor of  'Running Conscious'
I decided that, in order to set the scene for subsequent discussions about health, consciousness, exercise, healing illness and emotional rebalancing, it is vital to ask some important questions about our common perception and understanding about what the body is.
And the more you probe this question, the more mysterious it becomes.
You see, the majority of people take it for granted that they are the body, the body is a form of transport and it responds predictably to certain stimuli.
The common assumptions about the body are exactly what I was questioning.
It is, I have to say, one of my favourite areas of study. I have found that the further down the rabbit hole of investigation I go the less clear it really is. At first glance the body seems obvious. What you see is what you get, its a very clever lump of matter that responds predictably to certain things.
But then you ask what its actually made of?
And then you ask, 'well if it's so predictable how does the placebo effect work?'
How is it that certain terminal illness can heal and miraculously disappear with no treatment other than a change of beliefs?

And why does it matter? This is very important because the more flexible we can be about the body, in fact the whole of our lives, the greater the possibility that change can happen. And when that involves recovering and repairing the physical body believing and knowing that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE brings energy, hope and enthusiasm to the process. We need these to transform.
How can we change anything if, deep down, we don't believe its possible? It all comes down to what we believe. And the more we look at the body the more we see it is intrinsically linked to what we really believe. And by believe I don't mean on the superficial level, I mean what we believe deep inside at our core, the very truths we take for granted. It becomes a very profound discussion the deeper you go.
The bottom line is don't take it for granted. Ask the question 'Is it true? Is it true that my body can't heal?' If there is the slightest doubt then it is possible.

These, and other questions, are what we, rather excitedly, talk about in this podcast.

Have a listen! http://www.runningconscious.com/media.php

Podcast interview

Recently I had the pleasure of being interviewed by Julia Chi Taylor, a very upbeat, intelligent and vibrant being committed to helping others through guidance and information. She is also a top runner and has been for many years. She is quite a power house of energy. And she and her husband Anadi Taylor have started an online website called 'Running Conscious.'

As part of the site she is doing podcasts, and I am honoured to be among the first to be interviewed. After our initial interview Julia realized there was more information and inspiration than could be contained in the short 45 mins, so we are doing a series!
Topics we will probably cover will be:
Awakening as the truth of ourselves in the body. Being consciousness and living a healthy life.
The power of illness to create radical shifts in emotion, mind and spirit.
Nutrition for a happy life. Cellular health and spiritual upliftment.
Exercising the body, liberating the mind.

It's very exciting to be doing these podcasts as we get the chance to go deeper than usual in interviews. I hope you will join us.
The first interview is already online so go here to listen. In it I talk about my own health journey and what inspired me to go on the long healing path.
http://www.runningconscious.com/media.php

Coming Home

As some of you know, I have been writing a book this year about my healing journey and what I have learned. (I will announce when it's ready to read!)
It really is quite an experience writing this book. I have found it so much harder than playing and recording music, but I have persevered and will not rest until I have completed it. I still have some way to go, having just begun reading my original manuscript and that means rewriting huge amounts, chapters!

But that is not why I'm writing this blog. This blog is about something far more personal and intimate. This blog is about me and God, me and what I really believe in my deepest heart.

I have been confused all my life. My family was not particularly religious or spiritual, although my Grandfather (who I never met) on my Mother's side was a deeply spiritual man who had a book of Confucius' poems, and played guitar. It has only been in the last 12 years, since I have been with Amoda my wife that I have lived any sort of spiritual based life, but even then I'm not sure I can say I have REALLY believed in God. Everything about me has transformed in this time, but always there has been a hole, an inability to rest in the arms of something bigger than me.

Truth is that I have had the 'Doubting Thomas' within alive and thriving inside my self for a long time. Yes, during my years I have had moments of utter clarity of mind and awareness where I have seen the truth of existence and marveled at the ecstatic nature of life, but always I have drifted back to lacking a solid ground for my day to day existence. I still fell into the dark hole of doubt, the hole that has swallowed many a seeker.

And somehow yesterday while writing, researching and contemplating my chapter 'What is the Body?' something very profound, yet very ordinary happened to me.

I just arrived at Home in myself. I intuitively understood the holy relationship between my consciousness, my body, the Earth and the Heavens. I felt the miracle of all this unfolding, and I felt it beyond any words or descriptions. I stopped trying to understand rationally and just allowed truth to flow through me without trying to grab hold of it and consciously understand it. I surrendered to God's vastness. I knew myself as the Holy Child, perfect and beautiful, as we all are. And I saw how sickness, war, misery, depression, all these are part of a great forgetting of who we really are. There is nothing inherently bad or wrong with any of us, but that we totally forget our true nature and our relationship with the great Mother Earth.

I became a devotee of truth, love, harmony, beauty and natural living.

I feel I have found my Ministry after all these years of searching for answers and being lost and alone. And it is simple and uncomplicated. It is the Natural Law, living lightly and compassionately, remembering that our body is on loan, always turning to God, treating others as I want to be treated, and believing that miracles happen all the time, because I know the truth that anything is possible.

And I feel now I can truly assist others in this simple remembering of our holiness and wholeness.

Quite a day. But before you think it was spectacular, it wasn't. It was actually quite ordinary and normal. Nothing much happened and it was all quite subtle. Sometimes the divine and the blessed hide themselves in the ordinary, so always be alert!
Thanks for reading!

Finding Love in times of Great Change

"Your present life is a slavery, a heavy prison. Understand your situation and liberate yourself from it. I tell you this: exit from your prison! It is really sorry to see so much misleading, so much suffering, so much incapacity to understand where one's true happiness lies.

Everything that is around you will soon collapse and disappear. Nothing will be left of this civilization nor its perversity; the entire earth will be shaken and no trace will be left of this erroneous culture that maintains men under the yoke of ignorance. Earthquakes are not only mechanical phenomen, their goal is also to awaken the intellect and the heart of humans, so that they liberate themselves from their errors and their follies and that they understand that they are not the only ones in the universe.

A new culture will see the light of day, it will rest on three principal foundations: the elevation of woman, the elevation of the meek and humble, and the protection of the rights of man. "

These are the words of a great man, Peter Deunov, from his death bed in 1944. He was a Bulgarian Essene Master and Musician, considered to be one of the highest spiritual beings on the planet at that time.

He has written extensively and his works are beautiful and noble, of the highest calibre. The great motivator Wayne Dyer says Peter Deunov has been one of his primary teachers. I can understand why.
He points the way to LOVE, pure and simple.
We are in the midst of a great evolutionary personal, global and galactic change of consciousness. The lowest human values of greed and selfishness have had their time. This is why we see it everywhere so visibly. It is a paradigm in its death throes.
And the new era will be based in love, compassion and gratitude, on sharing and giving, and on collaboration with each other and nature. It will be a world in which animals are no longer killed for their meat, but will be respected and loved as creatures of god. It will be a time of harmony. Believe it, for it is going to come, sooner or later. And the time we are in now is the transition time. It is the time when each of us is called to the bar and asked whether we can choose love, or will we stay in fear and judgment?
It may be the most important period of time for many years.

So I encourage you to look inside yourself, to clear out old toxic poisons from your body, emotions and mind, and to become unafraid of the power of love, to give yourself to love, WHATEVER APPEARS TO HAPPEN TO THIS WORLD. Those who cannot choose love will be lost, it is a ruthless time.

Read the prophesy here, it makes excellent reading!

http://www.angelfire.com/oh2/peterr/ProphecyOfPeterDeunov.html

Listening to the body, its saying something. Its called FEEDBACK.

As if I had forgotten what the original purpose of our trip to. India was about, my body has seen fit to remind me...It's about well being, health, vitality, exercise, rest, relaxation, laughter, sunshine, fruit, more fruit, fruit, fresh fruit..

My body is just amazing!! It is SO SENSITIVE I just cannot 'get away with' anything that reminds it of Candida, toxicity, leaky gut..Nothing!  

I appreciate it and thank it for keeping me in check whenever I eye the wheat, or the croissants, or too much coffee...It's time I became a Master of my life.

And this reminds me of the story that most people are living. It's a massive disconnect from their body. 

It is an attempt to over rule matter, in this case the body. If you think about it, it is an attempt at control of life. We 'believe' that our bodies should be this way or that way, and perform as we expect. When that doesn't happen we are distraught, upset, terrified, anxious and even enraged. And quite rightly so as 'we' feel let down, fragile and scared at our own mortality. 

But coming into harmony with oneself, one's sense of oneself as consciousness in a body, and taking time to tune in to the body, begins to open up new vistas, new frontiers of life. And that means we develop depth of character, wisdom, less fear, more love and a grounded spirituality.

Body is not the enemy simply because it is mortal. Your body is your feedback system. It's telling you how you are doing. It's vastly and incomprehensibly alive. It's a quantum doorway. We dumb it down so much it is just incredible.

And that is why I love my body even when it shakes me up, even when it confounds my expectations, even when it seems to makes me stop ding something I really wanted to. It's sending me a message. My job is to listen. And that NEVER means being miserable or self pitying or resigned. It means acceptance, surrender, love, learning.

You don't need to find a Master..YOU HAVE ONE...It's your BODY!

This is the stuff I'm going to be writing about in my book and I'm really hoping to get going in India. 

It's working title is 'SACRED WELLNESS' but I also realized just now I like 'SACRED ILLNESS'. 

Thanks for reading. It's all love whatever else it appears as, it's always love trying to break through and show us it's illuminated face. 

Thunderbolt Heads to India

 HI! Welcome to the first of many blogs about our forthcoming trip to Goa, India. We, Amoda Maa Jeevan, and myself are off to escape the cold and bleakness of the UK in Jan and Feb. We have friends who live in Arambol and are helping us sort many things out. We have to find somewhere decent to stay, away from the noise and chaos We both like quiet and peace and just can't do with craziness.  This is not just a holiday. We are putting on events, seeing some clients and playing some music.
Amoda's Satsang Retreat.

And eating some of the amazing food, particularly the fruits. Papaya, Pineapple, Banana, Coconuts. YES!
This is what I'm after, some Vitamin D and some fruit. Some exercise and air. A bit of lightness.
I am going to be finding new and creative ways to pursue my fitness. I've been at a gym for the last 3 months working on muscle building. I'm unlikely to find a gym in Goa, so Im going to focus on flexibility (Yoga), running on the beach, and using some suspension traps to do upper body. I'm excited!
Last time in India I changed! Kaviji was born.

Let's see what happens this time. In truth I am not expecting such a radical experience, BUT YOU NEVER KNOW!
And this pic was taken in Tiruvanamili, South India, in the deep heart of Shiva land..It burns you into submission.
Goa is a little softer.

We both celebrate our birthdays while we are away, both eccentric visionary Aquarians who have great plans for a New World filled with the aroma of Unconditional Love.

I am going to post regular blogs, snippets, pics and even some videos.

If you know me at all you will know that I am on fire with inspiration and sheer LIFE at the moment. I have a lot to say.
Its 5 days till we set forth. It's raining and wild winds here in the UK. Getting excited and, if truth be known, slightly nervous about what the next 2 months holds for us. Right now we have got nowhere to live, so I hope we can get that sorted...But I also know that India is a mystery that reveals itself to you, and just makes you surrender. So we will not force anything and just rest in trust that everything will be ok.
Got my Suspension traps , got our super foods and lots of them, and got our gadgets for communicating with you!

All set. Let's go!